Lessons Learned

The last few weeks have been challenging work-wise. There has been so much going on... all of which is very important. You know that phrase "When it rains it pours"? Well, that saying has been appropriate to describe things at work lately. In the course of all of this, there have been a few instances in which I wish I had made different decisions.

One thing to know about me is that I am a perfectionist - in my work specifically. I have always taken great pride in what I do and I feel as though I generally make the right decision and choose the right course of action. I bring all of this up not because these were huge issues - fortunately they were not. What I keep thinking about is how much making these honest mistakes really bothered me.

It is so easy to say "no one is perfect" and "everyone makes mistakes," but it is another thing entirely to internalize the idea that sometimes the best intentions do not yield the best results AND that occasionally you should be as easy on yourself as you are on those that you love. I will always try to be the best I can at what I choose to do but I am working to be more forgiving of myself in the process. Most importantly, I want to be able to 'let go' once I am home. Whether I have a good day or a bad day, once I have that sweet boy in my arms I want to be 100% there for him and his daddy.

I think Milo needs to see that his parents are fallible and that it is OK. Sometimes you just have to regroup and move on. I hope for him that he can internalize these ideas as a child and know that sometimes "doing our best" is literally the best thing that we can do.

Speaking of our sweet Milo, here are some of the pictures from our dual photo shoot with both Mark and Aunt Sarah from several weeks ago. Of course, these are just Mark's photos. Some of them are "Daddy Approved" and some are not but were too cute for me not to share. Look at those cheeks!